and it's been 2 days

Since I've had some sleep.

I tried what you told me, and it didn't work.

I think I'll call a doctor. Yes... definitely.

♥ b.

So, if you love me let me go.

And I can't stop listening.

To Nat King Cole.
Just one song in particular.
Smile. I bet you know it. If not, you can find it HERE.

Even you can't deny it's beautiful. And no matter how much of a bad mood I'm in, it always does make me smile.



So lately I haven't been sleeping. Like, at all. I get about 2-3 hours of sleep at night.
This has fucked me over on more than one occasion. I've several friends telling me to go see a doctor, but I just don't want to.
I hate doctors you see.
Bad experiences.


♥ b.


Smile, though your heart is aching.

And I cry everytime.

Even though I've seen it like a million times.
Titanic makes me cry every-time the boat sinks.

it's just so sad.

♥ b

Tim Hortons is my love

I just trekked for 30 minutes in 3 feet of snow to get a coffee.

Addicted? Maybe.

But it's so good.

And it was.

And so he said to me,
'When ever I hear this song, I think of you.'

And I said,
':)'


And it was nice.


♥b.

Tiiiinnnneees! Tinnnnnneeeeess!

So, as most of you probably already know, it's valentines day.

Valentines day and myself have never really been in good company.
(Why yes, I am one of those bitter girls who doesn't enjoy Valentines day)

However, I do have a date with Percy Jackson for the rest of the day. I don't care if he's 13, he's bad-ass, and a demi-god. YEAH.


♥b

Without mentioning any names.

I've always wanted to write a letter to myself at age 12. Normally, it would be done at a more 'life-changing' age, but a lot happens before I turn 16... right so here goes.

Becky: Age 12,

By this time, I'm sure you've found out that you made it into band. Don't be scared though, I know you probably feel like you have a lot to live up to after Lindy, but all will be well. In-fact, you'll be a slightly better clarinet player then she ever was. Enjoy that while it lasts. Have fun in band, don't let your shy-ness get the better of you... for it is here, you will meet one of your best friends. Best friends you'll remain for years to come until she moves away. Which, will be hard... but you'll accept it after a while.
Move away from your original circle of friends, they're all going to go down paths you don't want to be on anyway. You'll find new friends. Some good, some bad, and some down right horrible. Try not to think too much of the horrible ones, what's a young girls life if not to have some bad friends right?
Your life is going to pass by pretty pleasantly through Junior High, and you'll enjoy it. So, when it comes time to head to High School, you'll be sad to leave, but happy for your journey ahead. But, this is when it happens. The worst thing you'll ever have to go through no doubt. You won't believe it, in-fact not for a long time. You'll get sick, you'll get lost, and you'll get found. All will be well.
After that's done and over with, you will meet the three best friends you'll ever have, and ever need. They will save your life, keep you sane, make you smile, and be there when ever you need them. Hold on tight, and never let go of these three. You wouldn't be able to handle it without them. You'll learn to love, and appreciate music more than ever. The being shy thing? That'll go away, just wait. It's not so bad to talk to people. Upon graduation, you'll be heartbroken knowing you can't spend everysingle day in a familiar routine, with the people you've come to rely on... but eventually you will embrace it. University turns out, just isn't your thing, but you'll be okay with that. Art, film, photography, and music will all be the essence of your life. You'll analyze them, make them, create them, and love because of them.
Oh, speaking of live... you'll fall in love three times. Be careful, it'll hurt when your heart breaks, but it's bound to happen. Your first kiss will be a bit awkward cause you'll have no idea what's going on, or what to do. But it will always make you smile. As goes for your first love, even though it didn't work the way you wanted.
You're going to have to hurt someone, and you won't enjoy it one bit. In-fact... it'll hurt you a lot more knowing what it's going to do to them, but it needs to be done. So don't back out.

Learn to accept things, and don't dwell on the past. What's done is done.
You'll work your way through some tough times, and come out with some great friends, good experiences, and a generally good outlook on life.

-Becky:Age 20

Ps. Snowboarding? Probably not a good idea!

P.P.S. He's going to define the word love for you, don't be scared... you never know how it'll end up.

Stupid Girl

She doesn't have to go to work,
but she doesn't want to stay in bed.

cause it's changed from something comfortable, to something else instead.




I'm just really tired of all this.


♥ b