I really need to get out..

I did a quiz thing on facebook today, because that's what I do when I'm bored :D
Anyhow... It was like, one of those in which you 'x' of movie you've seen... out of 246, I've seen 204? I think ... Yeah.
Like, seriously... Becky needs to get out of her house.


Aside from that I spent the day at my sister, because I didn't have class this AM/didn't feel like going this afternoon, and forgot to bring my pictures for class this afternoon.
Bitch-Rice may crucify me. I'm not too concerned anyhow :D

OH!


Just for kicks. Ignore the fact that I look like I've not bathed... because I hadn't :D

*sigh*
I'm hella bored right now, hence the blog of random city. I'm thinking about watching Ghost Ship... A scary movie. I love watching 'scary' movies. 'Specially ones with ghosts.



♥ b.


Ps. Colin is a noob at Zelda Games.

It was like I was 10 again

Yesterday I made a snowman. It was one of the best snowmen you'd ever see. It took me like 50 years(10 minutes) to make it, and it was like 6 feet(maybe 3) tall. I felt like a kid again, and it was so much fun. My sister thought it would be fun to give my snowman leprosy with her spray bottle she filled with food colouring and water. After she gave my snowman, this horrid disease, I gave him angry eyebrows because both he and I were PISSED. You can expect pictures of this soon. Then, as I continued to play in the snow my brother TACKLED my snowman right to the ground, smashing him in a million tiny tiny pieces, and at the same time, breaking my heart.

You can expect pictures of this later when I'm on my own computer :D

Looking Through My Red Box Of Mmrs

Actually, I don't have a red box of memories...It's closer to a burgundy colour.

Cleaning my room is like a extravagant journey through time.

Yesterday, when I was home from school, I decided it would be best to organize the place in which I spend most of my time.
The place that keeps monsters away, and joy within.

I put on my hip-waders, and equipped myself with garbage bags, fabreeze, and some good ol' determination and begun.
Now, cleaning the actual part of my room, wasn't that bad... pick up some clothes, move things around. Not too bad.

As soon as I opened my closet, I was crushed by a million pounds of junk that had accumulated through-out the year. My high hopes, and determination... along with the rest of my entire body were drowned in the biggest mess of life. Insert picture of the doom ... HERE:



Needless to say, I gave up on that, but I did find my box of mmrs.
Which is proving to be one of the most amazing trips through a box EVER. I found, my Art exam, in which I got the second highest grade(70/75), a pamphlet for 'Emanuel Bible Camp' ... Yeahhhhhhhhhhh.
Several sheets of foolscap, no doubt thieved from teachers during exams, because that's how rebellious I am.
I've got some sheet music for 'Fur Elise', one of the best piano songs of life.
Also found, were some pictures of my dog, I miss him so:(.
AND, possibly the most hilarious drawings EVER, my 'Aliens'. An old history test, in which I got 61/59 on :D. I really do love History.

TV instructions? Because I need to save those...
*Gasp* BEDTIMEFORBOOTS!!! It's this book, that I bought at the book fair when I was in the first grade... and everynight for YEARS I would read it before I went to bed.
Monopoly rules, just incase I forgot how to play..
A manual for my keyboard...
A poster ripped out of a magazine that has, a half naked Usher on one side, and Napoleon Dynamite on the other... I can assure you, it was ripped out for the Napoleon.
Oh look! another poster, with Jesse McArtney on one side, and the ever loved Orlando Bloom on the other.
Annndd the magazine I ripped said posters out of, Sept 2005!!
Last but not least, the old book of choir music. Such a good time.. I still remember how most of those songs go.

Oh, wow... What a trip.
That was fun, although, I still didn't clean my room.
That's okay!




♥ b.

Almost a week...

It's been almost a whole entire week since I've written something!
That's crazy talk.

Truth is I've been super busy with school, I'm really far behind...and they just keep piling stuff on top of what I have to do.
This is what I have to do for monday:
-Write a 5-6 page paper. (How many pages do I have so far? ONE)
-Create and paint a colour wheel, with 5 tints of all 12 colours.
-Finish painting my Mandela with 5 tints and 5 shades of all 12 colours.
-Make, bake, and paint body parts for Zombie movie trailer.
-Get photos for three different subjects.
-Put together a portfolio
-Photoshop said photos.
-Stop looking like a Zombie
-GETSOMEDAMNSLEEP.

I haven't been sleeping at ALL. It's horrid, I just keep having so much to do, and it's not like the stuff is hard, I mean ... come on... look at that list of stuff... It's just time consuming.

I feel like I've been so anti-social this week, because the truth is I just don't care if I talk to people, with the exception of a chosen few of course. If I could actually shut myself into my room and not leave for a week I think I'd be happy. I'm just sick and tired of so many people and their judgements, their whining, their faces too. People I thought who I'd like to be my friend, are actually annoying the fuck out of me, which is quite unfortunate.
On that same note, my friendship with Sam, is turning out to be phenomenal. I'm actually thrilled that I met her. She's such a good listener, hilarious, an amazing artist, beautiful, and all around lovely. I'm just so thankful I have her as a friend right now. :)



♥ b.

For the first time in a while...

I woke up with a smile. 

I had about 4 hours of sleep. But, for some odd reason, I was fully awake. Got up, opened my computer, changed the music from much loved Joy Division to a random album. It brought up one of my mix cd's from like 1956. Okay, maybe not 1956... but one of the first ones ever, and it was hilarious. I'm so glad I don't listen to music like that anymore. I then got out of bed, and was ready in like 5 minutes. I'm never ready that fast, normally I laze around for 50 years, then finally decided to get dressed, and make myself look presentable... And usually end up being late. 

Oh! and I finally sat down with the 'rents de Becky. I told them how much I hated them treating me like I was 5 when it is quite clear that I'm not. It was good, we sat down and talked about how much they've been pissing me off with the whole keeping me locked away forever sort of deal. Not letting me have my own money. Telling me what I should plan to do with my life. It's just been horrible. Normally my parents aren't like this. I mean they care enough to make me want to save my money, but never going as far as to take it from me. Have always been supportive of the decisions I make with school. I just really don't know what's gotten into them. But I gave them a stern talkin' to, and now all is good. 

So now that my application is full, I just need to put together my portfolio and send that in. Then wait wait wait! :D(fingers crossed). 

♥ b. 

Ps. One more thing, my friend Samantha(Rosa) has proven to me once again that she has amazing skills. As yesterday on a particularly unpleasant day she made me this(this). Totally brightened my day. Check out her blog, she posts some amazing drawings on there(just click her name up there ^^). Recently added a really cool piece of concept art for our Zombie movie project.

PPs. Sorry, I forgot... another thing. Colin is coming home this weekend. Under the circumstances, it sucks. But I sure do miss that boy, and can't wait to give him a hug :)

I'm done now for sure. =]

Chk Chk Chk CHk Chk Chk Chk Chk Chk Chk Chk

Apparently.... 

According to Safari web browser

Chk is spelled incorrectly... however CHk is not. 

This baffles me. 

Hmm.  Ah well. 

So, today I went out for photos. The first time I just went out to take photos. I had to get some for school of course, but I also took some just for me. 

And while I was out on my photo adventure, I walked on the frozen ocean. For the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE.

I live on an Island. I've always lived on said island, and I've never, not once, walked on the frozen ocean. I feel like my life is now complete. Like so complete, that if I were to die tomorrow, I'd be fine with that... Well No. No I wouldn't .... But I'm pretty darn happy. =D

I walked in snow that was like all the way up to my HIP. Which, really isn't that far I spose because I have short legs, but STILL. It was deep snow.

And on my way walking back from the frozen ocean, I met a man. A man with a camera. He too was out for photos. Our paths met. And this is exactly what happened. Our eyes met in a friendly hello. After that we both gazed toward the others camera. He had a Pentax. Decent camera, with a 55mm zoomlense. Not too shabby. 

He informed me I'd missed the para-sailers earlier that day, they'd been 'zig-zaging in around the smelt houses' apparently. It's quite unfortunate I missed it, but I got a few decent photos I think. 

Awh! Titanic is on TV. I do love that movie. And I do love myself some Leonardo DiCaprio. Now, I know most people aren't really fans, but in this particular movie, it makes me love him. Also he's got some pretty nice eyes, lovely green eyes. I do know someone with lovely blue eyes though =) They're very pretty. But yeah, Leo DiCaprio, his eyes are pretty class. 

I think I shall go and watch this now :)

♥ b. 

Wait, What just happened?

Just happened so fast, like a whirlwind of text flying around my head.

I just feel horrible about the whole situation, physically and mentally. 

I wish I could just go back in time, and just erase all the stupid things I said, 

but I know I can't. They've been said, and I can't take them back.

I really am sorry.

♥ b. 

Stop Being Chinese.

Not actually Chinese, because you aren't chinese... 

Just stop being themostannoyingpersonever. 

kthxbai.

I really wish it was easy for me to say "Is there something wrong?". But at the same time, if I do work up the courage to ask such a question, I'm afraid of what the answer might be.  

I'm just afraid really, which is why I'm letting it get to me, instead of confronting the issue. 

I've never been good at confrontation. So, I will continue to let it get to me, and just let it slide. Because what I feel now, is nothing compared to what I'll feel if it all goes to hell. 

I've a friend, from Ireland! Woo. He's a great guy really, one of the better people I've ever met.  

I was feeling particularly low today, and he managed to cheer me up, sending me hilarious youtube links, some funny pictures, and some of the best emoticons ever. And it was great, so for him, I send a thanks. Thanks for being AWESOME.

And Carole, and for Carole, who is also awesome. Because she cheers me up too, simply for being her. 

And for Kelsey, an old friend whom I'd lost touch with, but we've been talking a lot lately. She was my best friend some years back, but then she moved away, and we didn't talk as much, and then barely at all. We've just recently started talking again, and it's like she never left... I'm catching up on her life, and she's catching up on mine.  I missed her! 

That's really all I need to say for today! And also, that you guys are phenomenal, and I just love reading your blogs! Thanks to you guys as well :D

♥ b.