just becky

So, after eons of searching I think I've finally figured out just who it is that I am.

I am Becky, not Rebecca, just Becky.
I'm the kind of girl who thoroughly enjoys indie rock, yet at the same time loves classical.
I always try to find the best in everyone, and every situation, and while it doesn't always work... I do it none-the-less.
I always take Nat King Cole's advise, and smile... even though my heart is breaking.
I don't like to bother people with the dramas in my life, but I enjoy helping people work through their own.
I'm the kind of girl who will hold a grudge for too long.
In-fact, I'm the kind of girl who will hold on to anything too long. Feelings, memories, and receipts.
I'm the kind of girl who particularly enjoys love, I'll admit I'm a hopeless romantic.
I'm the type of girl who will do just about anything for her best friends, or even a complete stranger if it was needed.
I'm the kind of girl who may forget where your from upon first meeting you, but soon enough I won't forget much about you.
I remember useless things, but can't remember things that I need to know.
I'm the kind of girl, who may not love herself all the time, but I will love the beauty that the world provides my eyes with.
The type, who doesn't like to eat animals because it's unfair.
The type, who contradicts herself frequently, and enjoys being so sarcastic that people have a hard time figuring out if she's serious or not.
I may cry to much, but I smile enough to balance it out.
I'm not a complex girl, but I may get confused.
I don't particularly like my image, but I will take a compliment when it's given. I love telling people things that they like to hear, but only if it's the truth.
I'm the kind of girl who feels like being lied to is the worst thing to do. I forgive but I never forget.

I'm the kind of girl who, though I may not enjoy it all, appreciates everything.
This recently includes myself.


♥ b.

christmastimes.

It's Christmas time.


Have a merry jolly festive day and such :)

<3 b.

20 things that are easier to say with song

Sometimes, there are things you want to say to people,to everyone, but fear it'll hurt them, or change their opinion of me. This is what I have to say but can't. So, I'll use these songs to help me.

1. I thought I was someone else, someone good.
2. I won't forget you, at least I'll try.
3. I want you, I want you so bad.
4. You're so vain.
5. Don't walk away.
6. You know I love you.
7. Holy cow, I love your eyes.
8. I'm tangled up in you.
9. I'll have faith in all you do.
10. I'll die young, unless I change my ways.
11. I don't love you anymore.
12. I'm just so fuckin' depressed, I just can't seem to get out of this slump.
13. There's a possibility.
14. Nothing is real.
15. Do you even know how much it hurts, that you gave up on me?
16. It's true.... I mean it.
17. I wanna kiss a girl, I wanna kiss a girl, I wanna kiss a boy.
18. It's getting hard to be someone, but it all works out.
19. I'm the president of your fan club.
20. Tell me why I can't be there where you are.


We all have them. Things that, no matter how much you think you can say, you just can't. I may think I'm brave, but in reality... I'm not.

♥ b.

okay, so maybe I have a bit of talent.

So, after my 'I'm so untalented' moan, I had a chat with one Carole AwEOSME.

Who had this to say 'people are people, life is life - it is what you make it, and you'll still be breathing by the end of the day'

Everything I thought before, was blown right out of my mind, with those words.

She then proceeded to tell me, that I'd still have people who'd love me no matter what.
And she would still love me, even if I killed my boyfriend for no apparent reason.
She would be upset and worried about my mental state, but she'd still love me.


Isn't it great how a single person can put everything into perspective for you when you're feeling low?

I do love this girl :)

♥ b.


more than I bet she realizes.

I'm not that talented.

Really, I'm not.

I'd like to be, I would... but I find the more I put my mind to things... I just suck at them more.

I have friends who are really smart, and friends who can sing. I know people who write music, poetry, books! Friends who can cook, siblings who cake bake. People who can design, draw or take beautiful photos.

While, I used to think I was good at a few of those things, I'm beginning to doubt myself. Right now, I feel inadequate next to everyone else in the world.

I dropped out of my first year of university
I used to write all the time, but I've lost all inspiration.
I can't draw right anymore.
I haven't touched an instrument in so long.
I can't take pictures anymore.

I used to be good at these things(or so I was told)... not anymore.
It seems as if I've lost all talent. I can't do much of anything, and I hate it.

I'm angry, and I'm sad. But at the same time, no matter how I try... I just feel as if nothing I do is good.
Not just good enough, but just not good at all.

♥ b.

Just... not good at al.


Ps. sorry for being a downer