Monday, October 27, 2008

This is for you

I don't know where to begin, I've got all these things I want to say to all of you, but I just don't know how. I've opened the page, and I sit-- no lay here and textually stutter and stumble to find the words to describe this. To describe this mess that is my brain. So I'll do a bit of Spring cleaning if you will. In the fall. 

For You: It's crazy to think I've known you practically my whole life, yet until recently I didn't know you at all. But when I think back, I wonder if we'd be the same, had it not all happened this way? I like how it is right now. And though we're not always together, we always find time to talk. And I quite enjoy that. Insanely so. You know what happens to me, and though I'm sure you don't understand it, you listen and you try to cheer me up. At times I must admit I don't want to be on the receiving end of said cheering. But when I just want to be alone, I can't imagine it. I feel like I need your constant reassurance that everythi-- that I, will be alright. So for everything you've ever done for me, I say thanks. Thank you for being just an absolute legend. Thank you for those attempts at cheering me up. Thank you for the smiles. Thank you for listening. Thank you for understanding.  I just can't stress enough how much you mean to me. This is for you. 
I love you. 

For you: Undeniably so, you are quite phenomenal. How can it be that I've become closer to you in a matter of a couple years then I have with people I've known my whole life? Well, I'm not sure, but I'm not really complaining.  I've honestly no idea how I'd survive without you.  Where you go I will follow. When I say this, I mean it to be the truth 100%. We can be together all day, and still have plenty to talk about at the end of it. With any other person, I find this difficult. I love being able to tell you almost anything. And I know, that at times you really don't want to hear about the stuff I ramble on about, but you listen anyhow. We sit together in complete silence and you know exactly what I'm thinking. And for everything you'll ever do for me, I say thanks. Thank you for the thousands of laughs. Thank you for the stomach aches. Thank you for allowing me to be who I am. Thank you for always knowing the song I want to listen to. Thank you for being my Enid. You mean more to me than an eternity.  This is for you. 
I love you. 

For You: I don't talk to you as much as I'd prefer, but when we do it's like it's been only a day since we last spoke. I absolutely love the conversations we have. One in particular catches my memory. It was on a night of goodby-- See You Later. It would be months before we'd see each other again, and we talked. Just talked. And of course took ridiculous photos. Every thought of you puts a smile on my face, even though said thoughts bring a slight sadness, because I miss you so. I love how you see the world's beauty. And that's just you. You're a beautiful person, inside and out. I just can't even e'splain how much I love all that you are. Your craziness, your awesomeness, your fantasticness. Just good things. Thanks are in order. Thank you for being there for me to talk to when I need it, even when you've got other shit to do. Thanks for bringing a smile to my face. Thank you for being a person in which I genuinely admire. The world is hardly a comparison to how much you mean to me. This is for you. 
I love you

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So there you have it. This stuff has been floating around my head lately, and I just felt like you didn't realize how much each one of you meant to me. And even know, as I look back on what I've just written, it doesn't seem to put it all into context. I love each one of you in a different way, but I love you all equally. 

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That was hard for me to write, it actually was. But without these people I'd not be who I am today. I know this for a fact, and I know this is my second post today, well actually first, since it's just about one AM. But like I said at the beginning it's been hovering, and my mind needed a clean sweep. Not like they clutter my mind, but the do occupy a large part of it, and my heart for that matter. Just some words I needed to say.

Unconditionally,
♥b.


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