I Want The World To See

There's nothing you can choose, nothing you can lose. 'Cept your free will to be. 

I Think I'll go into a Stabilio listening frenzy. 

It rained yesterday. I actually love rain. Most people when they see rain get the same reaction "Aww! Rain! that sucks". But when I see rain I think "Aww! Rain! :)". I just thought I'd throw that out there to get it out of the way first.

So I've been thinking, and I really do believe I'll be going to X next year. My life has been changing, and my dreams are changing.  Obviously photography is something that I'm going to do for sure, but I've been thinking that I may like to do some more art, or celtic studies. I want to learn more, I want to be able to draw better, I want to be able to see the world in a different light, from all angles, from inside the ground, and under the water. Maybe art history. I think I want something to fall back on in the chance that photojournalism falls through. 

And I most definitely want to get off of this Island. I mean, don't get me wrong. I love the Island. I really do, but there are some aspects in it that I need to escape. My constant state of being surrounded by family isn't helping anything. They aren't helping anything. Just now, my mother came into my room and bitched at me. For no reason. 

I can't handle this anymore. WHERE ARE YOU!?! Ugh.

A strew of hilarious comics just ended. With a not hilarious picture. Not funny in anyway. 

No, I don't want to talk about it. Never again. NEVER.

I feel like my brain is lacking mental capacity, and the reason for this is a mystery. A giant mystery. One that includes, a suspect, clues, a victim, a cool hat and a notebook of course. What mystery would be complete with out a note book? I mean really. 

I think I'll read the twilight series again. I miss those books. I miss the good feeling I had when I though Edward Cullen could be real. But alas, sparkling vampires are only a fantasy. But yeah, the movie comes out in TWO WEEKS (^.^) And I really want to refresh before I see it. I mean, technically I'd only have to read the first one, but why not go ahead and do all four? It seems like a fun thing to do.

I have to draw a hallway, this does not appeal to me, I want to draw something worth my time. A hallway is a pointless assignment. But, It's about midnight. Nope. Past midnight, and I won't be doing that assignment. 

Just come back soon okay? I would appreciate that. 

♥b.

On your front porch is a letter from me, revealing my own hell.