The Polls are Closing

Over and Over, I fall for you. Over and Over, I try not to.

I wasn't shopping for a doll, to say the least I thought I'd seen them all. Then you took my by surprise, I'm dreaming 'bout those dreamy eyes. 

Brandon Flowers is telling me that everything will be alright. And I believe him. Well, for the most part. 

Recently I've been just letting my music device just play, no changing the song, no looking for a certain song, or a certain band. Just random and go. It's been quite a ride. I forgot how much I loved some of the bands I have on there. Like Stabilo, and MCR. Odd combination? I think so, but I really like each of them, and forgot how much I enjoyed listening to their songs. 

I can't find the words to describe my current mood. I can however say that none of them are good. And that thing deep inside me causing the sad yesterday, is beginning to grow larger. Like a dark storm cloud slowly covering my bright feels of joy. As far as I can tell there's not one particular thing contributing to this cloud, but many a different things being packed together. Like a snowball. My emotions are like a snowball turning into a rain cloud. Causing impending doom upon my well-being. 

Please be good to me, I'm not sure I could handle a fall like that. It would be a long way down. 

So on a different note, I had about an hour of sleep last night. That's always a good thing. I was visited by horrendous dreams. Not ones where your feet get cut off, just bad. Also, When I managed to grab a bit of sleep closer to the time I needed to get up, they were more pleasant.

We were all in that big house. I picture it being blue. A blue house. With a tree, and tire swing perhaps. But we can't live in that house without a dog. I need a dog. A big one, but we've been over this before. 

Tomorrow is wednesday. I like wednesday. Maybe I'll get some paint for this black mind of mine. It need a remodeling. 

♥b.